Depression- Pour it down the drain

With a special guest appearance by my annoying a** cat Sandra

…. “Depression is kind of funny when your older and slightly smarter” ….

…. “I think every time your depressed your a dramatic little b****” ….

…. “I’m more awakened now and I don’t have as many f**** to give” ….

“im just kind of going with it, allowing it but also i’m f****** lowww” ….

Fall so hard in love with me

11/7/2020 part 1
11/7/2020 part 2

{PART 1}

I want someone to….

….fall in love with me so fucking hard….

*BEFORE* they sleep with me….

….BEFORE they even had their fucking first kiss with me

Because if you haven’t fallen in love with me so fucking hard….

*BEFORE* you kiss me….

You don’t deserve to kiss me…

…OK

And also…. {Ramble, ramble, ramble, listen to the audio}

{PART 2}

I want you to fall in love with me so fucking hard…

*BEFORE* we have sex…

…So I know you love me for not just the sex…

OK

I need you to love me for the non sexual reasons…

…and that way I know…

….that you will never try to sleep with somebody else…

…because you’re so in love with all the other shit about me…

…I need you to be aware of the non sexual things….

If that makes any sense….

So when you look at these other girls…

….and they’re hotter than me…

….you’re gonna be like….. NO!!!

“But Sams got {THIS} and {THAT} and no ones got that and I fell in love with {THAT}….”

Thats when….

….maybe….

….. I’ll fall in love you…

Friends First

October 31st 2020

Only….

….if we can have a friendship last six months…

….without any intimacy….

…for six fucking months…

…without having sex…

Will I consider dating you

If we can make it six months and sex isn’t a thing tying us together…

…then maybe we have a shot at a real relationship…

Covid Photos

October 5th 2020

In the future looking back at photos from 2020 are going to be funny

Our grand children are going to be like

“Grandpa, what’s on grandma’s face? Right under her chin? That cloth diaper looking thing”

We will be like

“Oh honey that was 2020, that’s the Covid era, we don’t talk about that time, that was a bad time”

Love at first sight isn’t true love

October 5th 2020

It may have been love at first sight for you

But you will never know if it’s true love till some time passes

Till you have been through some struggles

Till you have hated that person yet you still cant live with out them

That’s when you know its true love

Just cuz it was love at first sight doesn’t mean its true love

That’s just fucking infatuation

Stop fucking infatuating yourself with strangers and trying to stick your dick in them

Thank you

My name is Sami and I am a gum addict

October 5th 2020

….

How do you know if someone is a gum addict?

Same way you know if someone is addicted to cigarettes….

….they buy the cartons at Costco

I… am…. a…. gum addict

I buy the cartons of gum at Costco

Probably, possibly bi-weekly or at least for sure monthly…. about…

Yeah

I got my addictions to the gums

I don’t know why

I probably have a deficiency or effects of antidepressants

I just keep wanting to chew it

Have my mouth so minty and not dry

I just don’t like to have that cotton mouth

That dryness

I’m not even that big of a stoner

So uh

Yeah ….

My name is Sami and I am a gum addict….

Lesson from a old man in a tutu at trader joes

ranted this morning

So this one day…. meaning right now…. I uh…

I was doing my hair and makeup, I was high

Um Its ok, I had the day off

I was like what makeup should I do? What hair should I do?

And I was like what the fuck

It’s my day off

And why do I even have to do my hair or make up

So I just put it in this messy ass bun since I don’t need my hair looking great

I really wish I could just take my hair off, have a shaved head or something

But I don’t so I put it in a bun on the top of my head and I get all the hair off my neck and shoulders so it at least feels like I don’t have any hair

Except it feels like something is squeezing my head which is really annoying but I guess its the price I pay for not shaving my head

Anyway I put my hair in a weird ass bun and I have my crooked ass reject glasses on, No make up on and thought…

. . . should I at least put some mascara on?

. . . don’t I need like something?

Then I was like bitch

If I can fucking see at Trader Joes

A old ass man in a faded fucking rainbow tutu with a dirty wife beater pulling his luggage around waving like he is Marilyn Monroe

Yeah…I saw that the other day at Trader Joes

If I can see that

Surely,

Fucking surely,

I can walk out of the house with my hair in a bun

No makeup on

Not even mascara

Surely, I can do that

So that’s what I am going to do today