…. “I’ve had a lot of bad sexual experiences in my life and you can pretty much start at the beginning” ….
…. “Let’s say like junior high school days already off to a bad bad start” ….
…. “Let’s just say I don’t remember anyone teaching me about the birds and the bees or about self worth or self esteem or like none of that!” ….
…. “I was just trying to think, out of the people I’ve slept with, um sadly I think its more than a few” ….
…. “But what is everyone else’s few?!” ….
…. “There’s not very many that I’ve slept with that I can be like {I’m really happy I slept with that person} and like that’s bad!” ….
…. “That is sooo bad” ….
…. “Sex is supposed to be a very intimate thing” ….
…. “I don’t just let nobody f****** in my intimate zone” ….
…. “But I mean. . . I did . . . but like . . . I didn’t know this” ….
…. “How many of theses guys? {and we said it was sadly more than a few} how many of them do I really NOT regret having sex with?” ….
…. “At the moment can only think of like 1 *maybe, kinda, sorta*” ….
…. “It’s blowing my mind that it is so close to zero out of the “few you know more than a few” guys I’ve slept with and that’s really fucked up” ….
…. “That’s why I’m fucked up” ….
…. “Like I’ve become this person who really is like craving that intimacy but like just having sex with someone isn’t how I get thate intimacy. . . . . . . . . . . I’ve just realized” ….
…. “Like everyone of those fucking dudes that I regret having sex with which is majority, umm, did I get that intimacy” ….
…. “Like noooo” …. {laughs}
…. “I just ended up. . . like. . . got invaded. . . like no. . . they just invaded me. . . like I wasn’t f****** ready. . . I didn’t know who they are, were, is!” ….
…. “But I didn’t know so much back then. . . I was so young” ….
…. “I just wanted love. . . I just wanted attention . . . I wanted affection. . . and um that’s how I didn’t get it” …. {laughs}
…. “But I thought I was gonna get it that way” ….
…. “It didn’t work very well” ….
Sami Peculiar 