…. “I used to be on anti-anxiety medicine.. . “ ….
…. “I was a little emo, angsty kid and uh, {laughs}” ….
…. “I like scraped. . . You know I wouldn’t call it cutting” ….
…. “I wrote some freakin note and put a little blood on it so that like my mom could think I was serious {laughs}” ….
…. “I was just being a dramatic little b****” ….
…. “So of course my mom takes me to some doctor and was like {she’s broken put some pills in her}” ….
…. “So I started on Prozac really early” ….
…. “You know what. . . I’ve been on the works of pills” ….
…. “In 2016 I was like . . . F*** meat, F*** dairy, F*** psychiatrists and all that shit” ….
…. “In 2018 the vegan diet was f***** me up, I was like slowly dying” ….
…. “My mental health was bad. . . I’d say even schizophrenic at times, full of anxiety and so much physical pain.” ….
…. “I was just so sick” ….
…. “Got back on medication for the anxieties and stuff” ….
…. “2019 the beginning I started eating meat again. . . ” ….
…. “THATS NOT MY F****** STORY, lets get back on track” ….
…. “Anyways I was on a lot of medications” …
…. “I think I’ve been off all medications for a good couple months now. . . At least 6 months” ….
…. “I’ve gone off medication maybe 3 times total” ….
…. “I always thought like maybe I have that sexual dysfunction cuz I can’t really orgasm that easy” ….
…. “I thought getting off medication would help” ….
…. “It’s still so hard” ….
…. “I realize I think that {laughs}” ….
…. “I think its just that I’ve had really bad experiences” ….
…. “So I think its that” ….
…. “It’s not the medication and the drugs” ….
…. “It’s the bad experiences that make is so I can’t have an orgasm easily” ….
…. “I can, it just takes a lot of work by myself, I don’t f****** trust nobody like that anymore because of my bad experiences” ….
…. “People talk about sex like {oh yeah that sex was good, we were f***** screaming and rocking and the bed broke and this and that}” ….
…. “I’m like what!? . . .That sounds like really uh-emotional, uh-personal. . . That seems very like. . . I DON’T KNOW . . .” ….
…. “You guys didn’t even know each other’s names!? That’s not good” ….
…. “So um. . . I don’t want that! I’m not going to get an orgasm from that” ….
…. “What? Cuz you can eat good pussy?” ….
…. “I can’t! No! I got to be so in love with you that can just blow on it and I will have an orgasm because I’m that in love with you” ….
…. “That’s the problem, I ain’t getting close to no body to love them” ….
…. “So that’s why I can’t have an orgasm I guess” ….
…. “Does that make sense to you?” ….
…. “It’s eye opening to me” ….
…. “But I don’t know if like, you know. . .” ….
…. “When my sentences come out, I’m my head they are like Mozart music but when it comes out its like Picassos f****** pictures” ….
…. “The whole reason I brought up the whole sex talk orgasm shit was mostly cuz I wanted to say one thing that i thought i thought was funny and I don’t think i said it!? Did I? Do you know if I said it?” ….
…. “It was that um {laughs} mother f***** I FORGOT!” ….
…. “So when I’m trying to have an orgasm. . . What I do is pretend I am madly in love with this person” ….
…. “. . .the kissing and the cuddling and looking into each other’s eyes, just going really slow and becoming one is what helps me have and orgasm” ….
…. “Not that rough and ready, quick and mother f***** I don’t know what” ….
…. “That’s just NO, porn shit NO” ….
Sami Peculiar 