Sex today is sad

Girl realizes she just met a guy

She barely knows him

Jumps in bed with said guy and puts his junk inside her

They have never even spent 1 hour cuddling

or…

Never saw each other naked before

or…

Had a moment where they loved each other

and…

Never thought about having a life with each other… out of love NOT lust

They have never even had breakfast together…

Saw a sunrise together…

Gone on a hike together…

Discovered a new thing together…

Or just done couples things….

BUT NOW….

Now they have had sex

Two complete strangers have had sex

Before they ever get to know one another really

Now that they have had sex

Sex is on the mind

So uh…

You just don’t get to know people in the same way as if you never had sex with them

You know what I’m saying?…

Oils and Rocks

“I bought every crystal…

Every aromatherapy essential oil…

Tarot cards…

Vitamins…

….trying to clear my bad juju.

I don’t think it’s working…

If it is working!?…

…Man…

If this is the best damn outcome because my life was that fucking shitty and all of those oils and rocks actually helped and “THIS!?” is the fucking holy grail life that I got here…

….then damn I don’t even know what to say, but damn; “

*I “spoke” this in a place in my life where my dog went blind, coming out of a 5 year relationship, I was physically very sick from malabsorption, mentally sick from all the stress, unexpectedly lost my dad, gave up my business of 8 years, and moved states alone.

**It was a very hard time in my life but I love who its has made me, the strength I have gained and all the knowledge and insight I have.

***IM NOT THIS CYNICAL ANYMORE

High in the bath stand up about being high

Here is a better well written version of a bathtub rant I had while high about being high on 1/10/2020

What do normal people feel when they are high cuz when I get high I feel like I’m having an autistic reaction.

I wonder, is this how others feel and why do they enjoy it? I feel like I’m going to swallow my tongue.

Or am I different and having some kind of an allergic reaction?

That’s what I want to know cuz I want to be in the stoner crew.

You guys are so f****** chill.

Weed is like Greeks Windex to them {My big fat Greek wedding movie reference}

You got insomnia smoke weed

You got anxiety smoke weed

You got nausea smoke weed

You got a headache smoke weed

Man if I smoke weed doing/ having any of that s*** I look like a goddamn crackhead and not going to cure any problems down the rabbit hole.