Drug addict brother

My life has been uprooted and every day has been a struggle for me since my brother showed up at 9pm on Saturday July 24th with dried blood on his teeth, a swollen jaw, barely able to open his mouth, with a face and mind I do not recognize. He has been living in a very dark and dangerous world I know nothing about and it breaks my heart.

I am an extremely deep feeling person and have been left alone from the only family I have. I cry every day and have constant headaches from it. I am not able to sleep, I’m full of anxiety and find myself slipping into a deep depression. I am nauseous, hardly able to eat, down 5 pounds in 3 days.

I have not heard from my brother since and I do not know if I ever will. I feel as though his death is coming, if it has not already. I have his dog now, along with my senior medically challenged cat and dog in my 1 bedroom apartment with not much help or support . They get along fine, although cramped. Most tell me to get rid of my brothers dog but this was my dads dog too. My dad who passed away 3 years ago yesterday. This dog is family. This dog is sweet and grieving just like me and I cannot turn my back on him when I know what it feels like. This dog may be the last gift and connection to my brother. I get so lonely and depressed at night and my brothers pit bull is the only one there I can hug that feels almost like a person.

Secretive people are weird

…. “You know what always like confuses me about people {laughs}” ….

…. “. . . Sometimes we got to get your name, number and email to like check you in for your appointment ” ….


…. “But some of these m***** f******  . . .” ….

…. “They are so f****** like securitive” ….

…. “What is that. . . overly security?!?” …..

…. “I DONT KNOW” ….

…. “Super secretive!” ….

8…. “I’m looking at them and I’m like…. {m***** f***** you look like you just some old man who like in retirement like who’s the f***be checking up on you?!” ….

…. “You think your some big shot?” …

…. “No” ….

…. “I don’t think people care to know what area you live in, like you ain’t that f***** big! STOP!” ….