I am really sick in the head sexually…
So guys don’t seem to understand… When I tell them I don’t give a fuck how good your skills are… How good your dick is… yada yada yada… You probably aren’t gonna make me ‘come’ and that’s just fucking facts…
Because the shit that you would have to be to make me ‘come’… I’m pretty sure you’re not gonna be …
I’m turned on by a guy who’s got his shit together… Who can actually court me… Show me that he fucking likes me… Will prioritize me… Who has balls to chase after me and only me… And show dedication like they’re not just gonna give up cuz I don’t open my legs for them the first fucking week or month or months…
I want to see fucking dedication… I want to see loyalty… I want to see that you’re gonna be there when I’m not feeling good… You’re there… I want to see that you want to know me… You want to know who I was… You want to know who I want to be… And who I am now…
That’s what’s gonna get me to ‘come’… Honey… But that man doesn’t exist for me… Apparently…
I mean… I don’t know… Every man… I don’t even want to say man… I mean… If they’re a man they’re usually fat old and bald… And the ones that actually are good looking are just fucking boys… Um… But none of them give a fuck about anything other than sleeping with me… And I’m sorry… But I can’t fucking ‘come’ with them because I know it… I know they’re not the one I’m looking for…
And I really…
I don’t know if what I’m looking for is even possible… But I’m trying to be hopeful… I guess…