New Year’s resolutions 2024 is coming in hot and I was just trying to think of my New Year’s goals and resolutions or whatever…
I know a lot of people don’t do that… I’m just weird and I love it…
I do like working on myself… I like working on my future…
If I wasn’t I’d just want to die… I can’t live like that… been there done that…
I figured I can’t k*** myself… I don’t want to commit s****** or any of that crap…
I figure if i’m going to f******* live on this planet I better try to have a good life…
I’m not just going to let life f*** me…
I mean it’s doing that anyway most of the time but I’m going to try harder…
I want to do better so that maybe I can find some enjoyment in it…
So yeah… just thinking about how I want to get my podcast going again…
Not that I actually have anyone who’s probably listening but because I really love just talking to myself… It sounds really weird I know…
But I work with a lot of people… Maybe like 600 a night sometimes… Give or take…
I don’t enjoy those conversations… I don’t enjoy those people…
I’m too burnt out and tired and have all these other creative things I want to do to actually just chill with people and have friends…
I don’t really have that many people close to me that are my friends on a deeper level where I enjoy hanging out with them… Where I enjoy talking with them…Where I’m mentally stimulated by them…
Like what’s that? I don’t have those…
I’m not easily mentally stimulated…
Going to a bar is the most boring thing for me… Going to a club… Okay… Maybe that’s the most boringest thing to me…
The typical friends things that people do don’t excite me…
I feel like I’m wasting my time… I could be creating… I could be doing something productive…
I could be cleaning… I actually f****** enjoy that… that is therapy for me…
But also I like talking to myself… Because that’s therapy…
Because one… I can’t afford a therapist… A good one that’s actually legit… I can’t find nor afford to see them as much as I should…
So the next best thing is just talking it out with myself…
But also It just feels so meaningless… It’s just this conversation I have with myself…
No that’s crazy… That’s crazy talk…
At least let’s make a podcast out of it… This is 2024… Let’s do it… That’s what everyones doing…
Sometimes I think… Yeah… I sound like a crazy person…
Sometimes I legit wonder if I’m a narcissist or a psychopath or sociopath or whatever…
I haven’t really looked them up… I don’t know the technical definition… I sure hope not…
I still wonder… Am I?
I don’t know… I’m just different from most people….
So I was thinking about my New Year’s resolutions and I want to start the podcast and how I’m doing other things…
I’m building a website for my art business… Which is 2 totally different things… different niches that I’m combining…
I felt like that’s probably really dumb…
Then recently I saw someone talk about how niche-less is the way to be and don’t f****** put yourself into a corner with your niche….
So I was like cool… f****** dope… It’s all right I can do this…
Cuz one end of it I want to do photography… Or I do photography…
I want to sell it or something… Like if people actually want to buy it…
But I also make Fine Art…weird… I don’t even know what you call that…
Like fine art… ART… Conceptual… A little bit of photography a lot of digital art…
Pretty surreal self portraits I guess…
So I do that… And then I also love tie-dye and grungy graphic tees and stuff… and rolling it over into stickers and whatever the hell else it looks good on… You know…
It’s a lot of different things… All rolled into one…And like whatever…
I thought about having two websites and I kind of do but it’s kind of going on the f****** art one too…
The personal s**** a little…. I don’t know…. Okay…. Lets just get back to the f****** topic…
Yeah… I want to start a podcast…
I just thought, why not start new year’s day…
Let’s just start doing it…
Let’s start actually doing the s*** that you say you want to do…
That’s my news resolution…
So um yeah here we go…
I guess this might be episode number one…
Wow I don’t know if I can do this but I’m going to do it anyway…
I also think it would be cool to… You know screw it…
People are gonna say i’m weird…People are gonna say i’m crazy… I’m whatever… Ugly… This… That… Or other…
That’s great… Give me the f****** hate… That means people are watching I guess…
But um… Maybe…Just maybe… I can find other people to connect with in this world who are unique… different… like me…
You know… Maybe… Instead of hiding myself i’m just gonna put it all on the line… Put it out there for everyone to see… Take it or leave it…
But maybe there will be a few takers…
So I’m down… I’m bored…
Like what else do I got to do with my life… Let’s go… Let’s have some fun…
Here we come 2024…